Click

Last night the pieces clicked into place.



This cancer is most likely a result of the radiation I received for non-Hodgkins ten years ago.

The treatment I received was the standard of care at the time.

I had read that breast cancer was a possible side effect of radiation of the mediastinum, but that relationship -- radiation to later cancer-- generally was for younger women.

I wanted the best level of medication to most insure I would live to see my babies grow up.

It makes me wonder what they will find 5 to 10 years down the road. Will they find that the treatment of breast cancer following treatment for non-Hodgkins leads to some other kind of cancer?

That thought makes me feel miserable. Today is a hard day. Even so I don't see many alternatives. I am confident that I will receive the best care available now. I am confident that I will recover.

Life has no guarantees.