I am Woman and Life is Hard

I had this plan in my head about the way things would work out. I was going to stand up for myself, I was going to be strong, I could hear Helen Reddy singing in the background (I am woman, I am strong…). But things did not work out the way I has planned. I didn’t get the outcome I thought I would. I didn’t get the outcome I wanted. And I understood that that could happen, but I wanted the outcome I wanted.

I know that if I had the chance to do it all over again, there is not much I would change. I still prefer the me who stood up for herself, but every once and I while something happens that makes me realize there is often a price to every gain. And that price can sometimes be very high. The price I paid for standing up form my self was high; I lost someone I thought was a good friend.

That loss makes me sad. Even though the price was worth the gain, it is a hard price to pay.

And my lap top won't turn on. I have to get in line at home behind 3 guys. Life is hard. I am addicted to that lap top.