Yup, that's me. I'm radiant and awake and not depressed. Life is good.
Yesterday I slept 18 hours out of 24, which was an hour or two more then the day before. Today I may only sleep about 12 hours. I am feeling better and better every day. I'm even starting to do some chores, which just thrills Al.
My left boob (wasn't there a book about My Left Foot--maybe I can get a ghost writer to write about My Left Boob-- Maybe not) is a little misshapen. It looks like someone took a bite out of it. In stead of a nice all over smooth curve, it looks a little like a lower case letter d. The part near the nipple is almost straight and then it rises in a nice swell. Oh well, better misshapen then dead. And I can always see a plastic surgeon when things settle down.
I think what bothers me more then the shape and the bruising is the rubber tube and port sticking out of the side of it. It may be necessary for mammosite radiation therapy, but it is just plain weird.
Speaking of that, I have pretty much decided to go with mammosite radiation instead of regular radiation therapy, unless of course some lymph nodes are involved. Part of the reason is I hated radiation ten years ago. I hated it because some of the techs treated me like an object in stead of a person . Their behaviour clearly stated that they were in the process of saving my life so they didn't have to care about my feelings. In fact they made it clear that no matter what I said, they didn't care about my feelings. When they make that attitude clear 5 days a week for 7 weeks the impact is overwhelming.
Of course I am a much more assertive person now then I was ten years ago, but I don't want to go through that process again if there is an acceptable alternative. And there is. Mammosite radiation is an acceptable alternative so long as I keep up with mammograms and stupid doctor visits (the visit is stupid, not the doctor). Mammosite radiation has not been around long enough to know whether or not cancer is more likely to reoccur with mammosite compared to regular radiation. But if it does, recurrences are treatable. And it won't come back. After all I've had cancer twice so far and that is enough for a life time. Right?
1 comment:
Babe I'm so glad your spirits are back on a level keel and the clouds have lifted and parted to let in the sunshine of everyday life! All that worry and whining was for naught! Remember that the next time you find yourself in a tissy! Give it to the Lord to hold on to and deal with (He is so much better at it than we are!)
BTW - my brother has resurfaced... long story but he is okay although my father, I'm sure, would like to put him six feet under for all the worry he put us through!
I hope to see you one evening this week before I depart for the outer banks. What works for you?
Good Lookin
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